No One Said It Would be Easy

Just an everyday blue collar guy who loves his family. I once was on Twitter. I had a tweecwet life on there. I tell stories. I ramble. I play guitar and I even talk about my life once in awhile.

You Want The Truth?

A sad fact for me about meetups is because of my past sins, I’ll probably never be able to go to another one. I want to meet so many people, I want to meet you more now than I did last year because here on Tumblr I’ve gotten to know you on a much deeper level than I did on Twitter. 

When I went to CHSH last year I met a lot of great people but I kind of stuck to a certain group of people that I was comfortable with because I had talked to them on the phone and had interacted with them a lot on Twitter. Namely Gilesmarie and MrWordsworth. 

Now I’m seeing the people who may be going to this coming meet up and I really want to go. I think I would be a lot more open and interactive now than I was last year. But I’ll never have the balls to bring it up to Karen and I won’t deceive her again. 

For newer followers who may not be aware of my past sins. About 17 years ago, I was unfaithful to Karen which created a lot of mistrust of course. She’s an awesome woman so she forgave me and we carried on. A few months before the tweet up last year I had asked her about going and she said she would not be comfortable with me going. I was a jerk and decided to go anyway without telling her though. Even worse I lied and told her I was hanging out with an old friend in the city. A few months later she installed a picture program on the computer that searched the computer for picture files. She found pictures of me meeting people, she had no idea who they were. She asked me and I fessed up. I had been spending a lot of time on Twitter way more than I spend on Tumblr. She suspected that I had a girlfriend on there. I didn’t but could understand her suspicions. It was the day before our 25th anniversary when I told her about the tweet up. We almost divorced/separated over it. Thank God we didn’t and now we’re fine but that’s why CHSH is a sore subject. 

Have a good …. Sorry old habits die hard. 

  1. allefory said: It’s sad how something from the past can still affect plans in the future, even when it has nothing to do with them. With time, you never know.
  2. hidemyloveaway said: I’m in a similar situation. But I’m going. And no lying. But I gotta work up some courage to tell him.
  3. andthentherewasglitz said: that is rough. Would she want to come with you if you invited her? would that even be something you want to do?
  4. bekaboo said: That’s a rough one-for both of you. I would love to meet you too. You are doing the right thing, though. Hugs!